I HATE.It's wrong,but I hate.I hate people I don't understand,I hate that my body is falling apart at 38,I hate the current direction of our country,I hate ignorance,I hate my daughter is growing up in a world I can't comprehend,I hate phone calls,I hate healthy food,I hate sunshine on a work day,I hate reality television,I hate being lied to,I hate the smell of warm milk,I hate tears,I hate weakness,I hate that I am so very weak myself,I hate being at anyone's mercy,I hate that I hate,I hate.....................
I honestly can't even love without hate.I love my friends,I hate that I'm not better to them.I love sunny afternoons,I hate that I don't do more with them.I love going out,I hate going home.I love Christmas,I hate shopping.I love to cook,I hate washing dishes.I love my child,I HATE that she's growing up.
I can find the yang to any ying.And,that's the problem.If you dig deep enough,you'll find fault with anything.I see the cancer behind the healthiest skin.Why can't I,we,live in the now?Why can't we enjoy our most base needs without dissecting every small if,and or but?Why in the hell can I not get through lunch without worrying about what's for supper?When tomorrow is today,will I be complaining about what I didn't do yesterday?Probably.
That's my rant for today,it ain't pretty.It is what it is.It's bleak and probably not too entertaining.......................................I hate that.